Monthly Archives: January 2013

Holding it together – kind of

Well, I’ve been away for a week so I guess I need to do better at updating more. This past week has been somewhat of a roller coaster. I had a few days where mentally I felt good, physically I … Continue reading

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Knocking on wood

I don’t want to speak too soon, but I think I’m experiencing some improvement. The breathing and meditation are helping, I only threw up maybe half a dozen times yesterday. Today I woke up and I felt better. Not a … Continue reading

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Taking control (or at least trying to)

Yesterday I decided that one of the things I love to do is go jog so screw it, I was going to try. Since I’ve been doing nothing since getting diagnosed, this really translates into a walk with a few … Continue reading

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Almost made it

Well, I almost made it through without puking yesterday. Fletcher had a birthday party in the afternoon which I wanted to go to. We dropped Evelyn off with my folks and Eric and I both went to the party so … Continue reading

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Hard week in a dark mind

It’s been a while, and as most of you can imagine that’s not a good thing. I’ve had many people contact me so it’s nice to know that some of you out there are still reading. This past week has … Continue reading

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Turns out I totally lied.

Well, I didn’t mean to lie, but what I thought was going to be the new plan turned out to be totally not.  Apparently the radiation oncologist jumped the gun and thought I wasn’t willing to do more chemo.  I’m … Continue reading

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Another new plan and public breakdowns. The glamour of cancer.

My mental state continues to suck.  I know that I can’t quit which makes me feel like I have no options.  If my cancer came back and I knew that I did not do everything possible, how could I live … Continue reading

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